its been nearly two years since i have written here.

you see, i have been busy.

i have had a baby.

a baby girl called Paloma Estrella. Although, less of a baby now for she is all of one.

its has overwhelmed me, more than i ever expected. I knew it would be hard but not this hard. I let it all consume me in a way. To understand motherhood, for me i had to. it is all what they say it is. its love like no other.

I would give up my life for her. She is my heart. My soul. Loving her is beyond what i feel.  Now that I am back at work, I am beginning to be a bit "more with it"  in all sense of the phrase. More me.

So I have decided to start this up again. "More me" is definitely who i was, but i am now a mummy, a mamita. so that is "more me" too. I have deleted all what was before, not because my thoughts before child are not important now. I want to start fresh.

i think this quote sums up exactly how i feel.